Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Straight from my tripping Mindset

Ice Storm Ninja Training
Quoted directly from Tripping Mindset

I took 3 hits around 11:30. I noticed after about a half hour from mixing it with my gum that the sides of my brain had a pressure building up inside of them, coming in equally from both sides. I was making fractals when suddenly the pressure was released. It felt like someone had acupunctured my brain. The pressure built and built, but then was instantaneously released in one beautiful moment.

My mind started imitating the fractal patterns of the program I was using, creating profoundly intricate patterns in the darkness surrounding my computer screen. The images were dark red with yellow and orange flames licking the outer corners of my design. Then, I felt intense pressure building in the middle of my forehead. I saw a third eye suddenly opening, my vision blurred, and then I got light-headed and fairly dizzy. Tonight will be interesting indeed.

I “re-awakened” from that entrancement about 5 minutes later.

Every movement I make seems to be guided. I notice it making a direct and perfect isosceles triangle with my third eye. Everything I do is centered at the top of this “power pyramid”. My body moves more freely, more fluidly. The lower portion of my body feels lighter, yet sharply grounded. The upper portion of my body, shoulders especially, feels as though they’re more sturdy or more stabilized. Oddly enough, it’s all in the formation of triangles. I feel like a diagram straight out of a Wing Chun Gung Fu book. As I go to stand up, I notice I instantly shift all of my weight to the top portion of my foot and arch up my heel. Motion like this is harder, yet somehow worth it. Less sound is generated and my overall speed is increased while crouching. My kicks seems faster, more fluid.

Enough. Back to fractals.

Can’t stand to concentrate on anything. Fractals are annoying me. Too much light.
The computer screen must go off.

Ah, tripping alone in a dark room…. Still typing. Wonder how that’s working for me? Oddly enough I thikn I;m doing fine.
Light.. Darkness is strange indeed. Better perhaps? No, no.. just different.

Words starting to shift on screen. Losing concentration on task. I can feel my own movements, and how they vibrate into the darkness. I can sense it happening. Must fix that, gives away too much.
Pushups are easy. My knife sure does flick out fast. So shiny and silver. I’m growing accustomed to it finally. Ok, back to darkness.

I melted into my bed.
I did think of this though, lsd is affecting me right now as I type. Now I know how to explain it. Its like a higher form of thought, you think, but you don’t think about thinking. You just.. realize. You unconsciously think. Hard to explain, but that’s what it is. Underlying symmetries are everywhere.

The knife is evil. There’s no need to be this way.

Its in the room. But the knife is useless. Useless… Oh, tool’s on. I need to put a playlist on. Make it easier on myself. The desk sure looks strange. Wooden grains are weird… Saw my reflection in the tv and got scared.

Had to piss, and the wall started making loud noises at me. Fuckin walls, cant find a god damn quiet one anymore. Wow, that was a fuckin retarded statement. At least I realize how bad it was. Maybe? Oooh, techno. I like G-force.

Must remember, never fight it. Never think about it. Just go along.
Nothing can save you. No one can save you from it. Only yourself. If only..

Ok, now Im convinced. Time is no longer passing. At all. Clock isn’t moving. Sounds are everywhere.. Cant tell where its from. Fuckin walls. One day I’ll fuckin get them.

Ok, under control. Hallucinations confirmed, reported as system error. Mental note to self: Do this more often. Exercise and stretch mind and body.
Otherwise it’ll go to waste.

I love arguing with my other selves.
Bastards.

Mhmm. Guitar. I am on the same emotional plane as Jimmy Page and Jimi Hendrix. Its an honor gentlemen, it really is. And the morrisons, van and jim.

Hahahah omg, he was named van. THAT SUCKS

Castles made of sand.. Slips….. into the sea

The floor is moving, the screen is moving. Tonights acid revelation: Living in the moment.

Nothing will ever be able to explain what these long nights of no sleep with nothing but me and a guitar actually do. Its fucking incredible.
Symmetry is in everything. Its all so beautiful. Hahah its gooey. I really am a fuckin dog when it comes down to it.

SPOONFULS OF INSANITY.
that’s what im callin this new song/riff thing.

After all this playing with knives, I finally cut myself and bled. Only problem is that its from my guitar, not knife. That’s crazy. That shit doesn’t actually fuckin happen in real life.

Wow, that cant be good for my fingers. No wonder they call it tearing shit up.

I LOVE LIFE.

After that I laid in bed and slowly spiraled off into sleep, listening to Modest Mouse.

1 comment:

TheDruid said...

lol, that's intense. I like the title, and how you keep repeating the symmetry idea. And the triangles...

Remember last time we tripped at Catmaster's house and I tried to type? It's fuckin' hard...

But the hallucinations sound scary as hell. Are they?